2020 was one of the hardest years of my life. During the end of that year, and the beginning of the following, I had one of the darkest depressions I had ever experienced. It was a year when a lot of my friends were married or moved on in some way in their lives, thinking…
The Silent Saturday
Here is a poem I wrote ten years ago about the day between Christ’s death and resurrection. Forgive any grammatical errors, but hope it encourages you. Enjoy! It was a silent Sabbath morn that fell afterwards The Disciples had fled, their Rabbi, crucified and lifeless He was wrapped and placed in the tomb Finally, He…
The Answer to Feeling Loveless
Do you feel important to yourself? How about to other people- when they see you, do you feel valuable because of how much affirmation and attention they give to you? What about a significant other? Suppose you’ve been dating and everything in life seems to look clearer and sharper- your commitment to each other grows…
Attention: Where Does It Go?
“You just want attention You don’t want my heart Maybe you just hate the thought of me with someone new Yeah, you just want attention I knew from the start You’re just making sure I’m never gettin’ over you” – Charlie Puth This lyric from Charlie Puth is significant for several reasons. First of all,…
The Heart is the Heart of the Matter
Emotions are problematic in a world where we try to make sense of everything. If you’re more of a rationalist when it comes to approaching problems, you’re going to face quite a lot of obstacles if you ignore emotions or face the complexities of others. Emotions present different kinds of obstacles; if you pull on…
Letting Go To Hold On
Resentment is a trouble-making reality in the Christian life. It is when we withhold an act of God’s forgiveness and grace from others, especially when we feel that the full blow hasn’t been dealt back in response to what has taken place. It’s unforgiveness on steroids, and a way to keep yourself from truly moving…
27: A New Venture
Today has left me with a lot of thoughts: regrets, hopes, aspirations, and a longing to discover more. Every birthday to me is like resetting the clock on another year and taking a step into the next year, of which I know nothing about. It’s scary in a sense, since there is this missing piece…
Anxiety, Doubt, and Compassion
There is a common saying I hear in Bible studies and in sermons, don’t pray, “God, give me patience,” unless you’re willing for your patience to be tested. Often it is said to offer comedic relief when the topic of prayer begins to stifle, or meant to offer a practical perspective. It is meant to teach the…
The Ordinary Life in 2019
“I shall not fall into the falsehood that this day, or any day, is merely another ambiguous and plodding twenty-four hours, but rather a unique event, filled, if I so wish, with worthy potentialities. I shall not be fool enough to suppose that trouble and pain are wholly evil parentheses in my existence, but just…
Life Is More Than What You Experience
I was raised up believing I was somehow unique Like a snowflake distinct among snowflakes, unique in each way you can see And now after some thinking, I’d say I’d rather be A functioning cog in some great machinery serving something beyond me Fleet Foxes (Helplessness Blues) Our minds are all we have. They are…
What It Means To Be a Christian 